I still think its the prospect of me being caught so off-guard that resulted in the long stretches of silence. What amuses me tremendously is the way my head was in a world of its own screaming with trains of thoughts running wild - but as soon as my brain registered consciousness for the need to say them out aloud, I find my voice getting caught in my throat. The way you carry yourself, bold and fearless, gave me a few glimpses of the person I've always wanted to be. Like an abyss of black hole, I was being drawn slowly, but surely into a vacuum of an entirely new world. The speed, the rush, the overwhelming gestures and unconventional conversations. And just like a fool, I followed you into the darkness.